"I'll be home a bit late tonight, love -- I'm going down to VISE."
"Who the hell is Vi?"
"You wouldn't know her. Keeps the best massage parlor in St Kilda Road."
How to break up a marriage, ten easy lessons, enquire within. Actually VISE is the
Victorian Institute of Secondary Education, and I've been doing a spot of proofreading on
its jolly little publications. Rewriting, some might call it. You would hardly expect the
educators of Australia's youth to know much about English, especially the tricky bits
like verbs and commas and stuff, and if they did there'd be no work for me, so I'm not
complaining.
They're a good
crowd to work with there at VISE, and one of the best things about the job is that there's
a John Foyster in the building. I won't reveal his shameful reason for being there.
Neither will anyone else. It seems to be some kind of state secret. Another good thing is
that within easy walking distance of the place is one of the best bookshops in the
country, Kenneth Hince's. I went there during my lunch break on the first day -- and
again, with John, on the second day. Ken was shocked to see me two days running,
since the last time we'd met there was in 1976. He recovered himself sufficiently to
mention some first-edition Peacocks he hoped to have in soon. John could see me
calculating whether I'd have enough left over from selling the Renault to buy an old VW
as well as the books (how to break up a marriage, advanced diploma) and somehow he
spirited me out of the shop.
I haven't been back
again, not out of consideration for Ken's nerves but because we've decided it's more
efficient for me to work at home most of the time. I have a dictionary at home, for a start,
and a desk all to myself. Some of the people at VISE reckon I've been sent home because
I've been seen fraternizing with Foyster, but that can't be true. All sorts of people there
fraternize with Foyster, from the tea-lady down.
And suddenly light
dawns! It's nothing to do with efficiency! Like any seasoned pro, I turned up for work
with a good supply of coffee and a mug and an ashtray, and they came in handy, but on
the second day, at a time not appointed for tea breaks, and entirely without the tea-lady's
permission, I made a cup of coffee -- and I used one of her spoons. That was
stupid. That's probably the real reason why I'm back working at home. How could I have
forgotten so much about the Public Service as to slight the tea-lady? Oh, what a fool I've
been!
The good thing
about working at home, reading the course handbook for Year 12 Economics, say, or
Pure Mathematics or Lithuanian, is that I can listen to music all day, and if I feel like it I
can drink something stronger than coffee while I'm working. The bad thing is that after
the second or third bottle all this alien stuff, whatever language it's written in, starts
making sense. First rule in editing academics: when they start making sense you are
losing your concentration.
Lee Harding has had a mystical experience in a tower. At Geelong. "The Buck Mulligan of
the science fiction world," I said. "Who", said Harding, whose brain has rotted from
reading too much of that crazy star-wars stuff, "is Buck Mulligan?" "Stately, plump Buck
Mulligan came from the stairhead, bearing a bowl of lather on which a mirror and a
razor lay crossed," said Damien Broderick, approximately. Damien reads as much SF as
Lee does, but he's younger. "You mean Hop Harrigan," said Lee, and went on to tell us
about some mystical experiences he'd had as a youth with Hop Harrigan.
Damien and
Dianne have acquired a very pleasant house in the better part of Brunswick, that
stimulating multicultural suburb where the best phonebox graffiti these days are in
Turkish, and we were dining there. The food was heavenly, the conversation almost as
good. I'm not sure how the ladies felt about it, but I became a little irritated -- envious
may be a better word -- at all the high-powered professional writers' talk that was flying
about, so I was forced to admit modestly that I had just made my first sale to the UK.
That shut them up, by crikey, for a few seconds. They didn't seem to be pestering me for
details, so I volunteered them before they could change the subject. I won four quid in
the New Statesman's comp. Look it up. It's the issue for 27 June, vol. 99 no.
2571. "I'm thinking of joining the SFWA," I said. "You can't," said Lee, "it's the Science
Fiction Writers of America. Sales to other countries don't count." What a blow! I
thought they would let anyone join. The talk moved on to what it's like being a
writer-in-residence
-- the night was full of that sort of thing, and grants and advances and the
avarice of publishers and so on -- so I mentioned that I was considering an offer from
Collingwood Tech of an appointment as proofreader-in-residence. A downright lie, as it
happens, and it didn't impress them in the least, so I gave up and listened to Irene and
Dianne and Sally talking about the real world.
Keats and Chapman often had mystical experiences in towers. One of them
happened
while they were in Germany doing a spot of proofreading for a local publisher. The first
few books they read in their rented tower did not overtax their knowledge of German, but
during the third week they were given a job that nearly drove them crazy. It was a very
long, intense, convoluted novel by someone named Dan Vinniken about twenty-four
hours in the life of an ancient astronaut. This rather improbable being had spent a day
in June 1904 wandering the streets of Darmstadt, apparently quite undetected,
observing the stolid Hessian burghers and poking about in their minds by some sort of
alien psychic means. The story was hard to follow, and the author's style was the most
complicated abuse of the German language the friends had ever seen; after a while they
gave up checking the spelling, as the typesetters had before them. Altogether they spent
six weeks on the book, and for most of that time they were haunted by the feeling that
they had been there before, a feeling intensified by the author's frequent use of the
mystical term "déjà voodoo" and many other slogans and names that
began with the letters DV. At last they reached the end, and were annoyed rather than
surprised to discover that the last sentence in the book was the same as the first
sentence. "Well," said Keats, "what do you make of that?" Stately, plump Chapman took
off his spectacles, dusted them, and said: "Vinniken's fake." Keats fell sobbing on a great
pile of galley proofs.
That story, such as it is, is dedicated to Lee Harding. Lee and I had a mystical experience
on a mountain one night, years ago, and he has never come down from it, bless him, and
I read Joyce, pardon me, rejoice for him, winner of the Australian Children's Book of the
Year award in this year of some surviving grace 1980. The book is called Displaced
Person, it is not an autobiography, and if you don't rush out and buy a copy you're
an enemy of the people.
What happened on
that mountain? Well you may ask. I have read and heard several versions, so my
memory is confused. What I remember is that we were standing there one chilly night,
somewhere near Mount Dandenong, and I was dying to go home because I was freezing,
but I stayed because I'd been a bit rude and unfeeling towards Lee in recent weeks or
years and I really do like the man. He was going on and on about how he wanted to be a
writer, had always wanted to be a writer, and was a writer, but somehow he wasn't
making it, and here he was, nearly 30, and what do you do when you're nearly 30 and
not making it and all you've ever wanted to do is be a writer? and so on. "Be a writer," I
said. He looked at me with a wild surmise -- silent, upon a bit of a hill in the
Dandenongs -- and then we went home. Well, what would you have said? Anyway, he
has gone on being a writer, and he's very good at it, and I am happy for him.
It's time I confessed that I have always wanted to be a writer, too. What I mean by that
and what Lee means are different things. I don't want to sit for weeks on end over a cold
typewriter, poisoning myself with cigarettes and hard thoughts about the human
condition, resenting phone calls from Porlock, getting nothing in the mail but bills and
summonses and polite rejections from idiot publishers and invitations to address
gatherings of litry folk at no cost to myself -- in short, frittering away my life in sustained
creation. All I want to do is be a writer, with a modest dozen or so books on my
shelf each positively reeking with exemplary taste and bearing my name on its spine; I
don't want to have to work at it.
More than
anything, though, I have always wanted to be a philanthropist -- just a simple, secretive,
plain-living and very rich philanthropist. What do you do when all your life you've
wanted to be a philanthropist, and here you are, past 40, without a savings account,
and you've never even learnt how to fill in a Tattslotto coupon?
But it could be
worse. There are wilder ambitions. I might always have wanted to be a tea-lady.
Australian
Book Review, 1981
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